Saturday, June 2, 2012

The Most Pregnant I have ever been

As of Friday at 8:02pm, I am officially the most pregnant I have ever been. But now its Saturday and I'm still pregnant. I am officially 5 days overdue (Joel was only 4 days overdue). Its a bit disheartening to not be holding my beloved child in my arms, but exciting knowing that at any moment labour could kick in and in a few hours (hopefully) I'd be holding my child. And I know that eventually I will be holding my baby in my arms, even if this child decides not to come on its own (Thursday would be induction day).
Today I have been relaxing and walking. I have already walked to Safeway and back with my neighbour, and to House of James and back with my mom. I hope that all this walking will help induce labour (and not leave me too tired to do all that hard work). Now, I'm sitting and watching my mother play with Joel in the backyard while I rest from all that walking.

Some random things I look forward to about not being pregnant, other than the obvious (holding my baby)
1. Getting to wear my wedding ring again
2. Not having these insane pregnancy hormones making my hair into a big frizz ball all the time
3. Not having to worry about who is at home and if I can call them to come and look after Joel
4. Being able to walk around the block and not worry about going into labour
5. Not having to get up and pee ever 45 minutes
6. Not going through 4 rolls of TP every day (see above)
7. Being able to tell Joel that the baby is FINALLY here
8. Going to the store and buying veggies without worrying about them going bad after the baby is born
9. Being able to play on the floor with Joel
10. Not being bored stiff staying at home all day hoping to go into labour

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Photo Shoot

Last night, our care group from church shared our last meeting together as a complete group. (okay, we weren't even all there, since Jordan had to work, but this is as close as we'll come in the following weeks). We decided that it would be fun to get some group shots and some shots of the two boys together.


Cody and Joel: about to share a kiss

Group Shot: (L-R) Carlye, Dan, Amanda, baby #2, Joel, Cody, Christina, Makai, Darnell, Karmen and Greg (missing: Jordan)

Another good shot!!!

Time for some silliness!

Yikes! Karmen and Greg with a baby?! Who would have thought??? You can see how "shocking" it would be for them!
 

I really just love Darnell's face in this picture

Karmen and Cody taking a peek over the fence at the puppy

Cody is super determined to give Joel and kiss. Joel wants nothing to do with it. But Cody's got his own way of making things happen.

Even though its a bit blurry, I still love how Karmen and Carlye are busting a gut at Cody trying to give Joel that kiss. Joel, still wants nothing to do with it. I think I have about twenty shots that look similar.

Carlye and Joel
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Monday, May 28, 2012

White=Blood

How come every time I wear my white sweater, Joel decides to fall down and bleed? Really? That sweater is almost a guarantee that Joel will bleed. And then I feel like a bad mom, for pushing him away as the blood pours down so I can first remove my sweater before comforting him. But the reality is, he isn't going to die in that time, and it'll save me ten minutes of stain treating later on. Ten minutes I can spend comforting him and playing with him instead.


Sunday, May 27, 2012

Portraits of a Growing Family


Joel, can you say Baby?
"Na Na"
 
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Global Community: Working side by side

"We are one in the Spirit, we are one in the Lord
We are one in the Spirit, we are one in the Lord
And we pray that all unity may one day be restored
And they'll know we are Christians by our love, by our love
They will know we are Christians by our love
We will work with each other, we will work side by side
We will work with each other, we will work side by side
And we'll guard each one's dignity and save each one's pride
And they'll know we are Christians by our love, by our love
They will know we are Christians by our love
We will walk with each other, we will walk hand in hand
We will walk with each other, we will walk hand in hand
And together we'll spread the news that God is in our land
And they'll know we are Christians by our love, by our love
They will know we are Christians by our love "

Pentecost Sunday has been a blessing to me this year. Pastor April was sharing about how Pentecost is the Church's birthday. A time to remember what the Spirit has done and is doing. The Spirit is working in all of us. Whether we are missionaries overseas, raising a family, offering hospitality, adopting a child, working to support our family, etc, we are doing the work of the Holy Spirit.

These past few weeks and the weeks to come are full of change in our lives. I've stopping working for a family, that I have been with for the past 5 years. We are expecting our second child. Good friends, Darnell and Christina Barkman are moving to the Philippines to plant a peace church, and our other friends, Greg and Karmen Sawatsky are planning on teaching kindergarten in Korea.  It is such a blessing to be able to commission our friends to do the work of God in other countries. But its often left Dan and I feeling lonely and longing for those friendships.

This morning, Peace, which comes only from God, swept over me. "We will work with each other, we will work side by side." It was a revelation to me. We are all doing the work of God. Together. Side by Side. Yes, we will be in separate countries. Yes, we are divided by miles and hours and timezones. But together, side by side, we are all doing the work of the Spirit. The Barkmans are planting a Peace church. But we are too. The Sawatsky's are teaching kindergartners. But we are too. We are home, raising a family, offering hospitality to those who need a year or two (or more) of friendship. But so are they. We are all doing this together, side by side. Together we are spreading the Good News of Christ. In whatever we are doing, wherever we are doing it, we are doing it together as a global community.

Last week, we commissioned the Barkmans for their work in the Philippines. This morning felt like a commissioning service for all of us. We are all called to do the work of God, wherever we are. Together we celebrate the church's birthday, the day of Pentecost. We celebrate not only that the Spirit came down many years ago, but we celebrate that the Spirit is still at work among us. It is a blessing to offer hospitality. Its a blessing to build a Peace Church. It is a blessing to teach young children. Its a blessing to raise a family, work, adopt a child, offer love, share a meal, etc. Together we will walk with one another, hand in hand, spreading the news of God. We will work side by side with each other doing the work of the Holy Spirit. And that is something to celebrate.

Conversations with AmanDan

Dan and I were talking yesterday about the impending birth of our new baby. We are both getting a bit antsy to have it arrive as we feel our lives are on hold until it does. It really is hard to live life when you worry about when and where and how fast this baby will arrive. Can we go for a walk around the block? What is our contingency plan if we go into labour? How will we get home? So we've been trying all means necessary to get this baby out. We've tried mother's cordial, spicy food, walking, eating pineapple, sex and nothing has happened. Dan commented yesterday, "We've tried everything they've said to do and still no baby!" To which I replied, "We have one thing left to try: patience."

We'll let you know how that turns out. But initial responses weren't favourable.

Friday, May 25, 2012

All I want is a number

The downside of giving birth so fast to Joel is that I never got to be 'so many' centimeters dilated.  I know it sounds weird, but with this pregnancy, I really wanted to be 'this many' centimeters dilated.  I really just want a number. A number that I could share when I retell our birth story..."I was 6cm dilated when they checked me and then a few hours later I was fully dilated and told to push." Something like that.  I know its silly, but its a desire I have.
So this time around, I got my wish. Last week, when they checked me I was 1-2 cm dilated. This week 3-4 cm. So here I am sitting around like a ticking time bomb, waiting for labour to start. I have to say the next number I hope to hear is 10...but that might be asking too much. So is wanting this baby. I think I've come to the conclusion that I may just be pregnant for the rest of my life (well at least the rest of this month!) Pray for me!

Monday, May 21, 2012

Frustration

Yesterday I woke up at 4am (thanks Joel) and was experiencing some contractions. Nothing steady, but definitely more painful than normal. They were fairly inconsistent, but I was hoping that they would change into more fruitful contractions. When we woke up at 8am, it was evident that these contractions were definitely intense, although somewhat irregular. We hoped yet again that someone would come of these. I contracted fairly steadily all morning (and yes, I tried unsuccessfully to hide these at church) and then they stopped at about 1:30pm. I had another handful of these braxton hicks in the afternoon and went to bed disappointed that there is still no baby. It was a frustrating day. Being in pain for nothing is not something that I wish to do every day. I was telling Dan how frustrating it was to contract all day without a baby to show for it and compared it to being sacked repeatedly every 5-10 minutes without getting to hold a baby at the end of the day. I could see him wince and curl up in a ball as I made this comparison...I think he understood.
I had this same frustrations before Joel was born. A whole day (also a Sunday) of contractions, more intense than the normal braxton hicks without a baby or actual labour at the end of the day. Then two days later, he came flying out. Perhaps that will happen again, or perhaps I'll be pregnant for another 17 days. But either way, sometime in the next 7-17 days there WILL be a baby. I guess not going into true labour yesterday was a blessing in disguise since the one midwife I haven't really met was on call on Sunday. This morning at 10, they switch and the midwife I love (and want to be at my birth) is on call. Maybe just maybe, this baby will come today......or perhaps it'll be in 17 days. Whichever it is, I WILL get me a baby sooner or later!

Please God make it sooner!!!

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Silly Reasons why the baby should show up soon

I have a ton of real reasons why this baby should arrive soon. You know, the usual. I'm uncomfortable, its due date is fast approaching, I really don't want to work tomorrow etc. But I also have a few unconventional reasons why this baby needs to come.
1. My shirts don't fit. Slowly over the last few weeks, I have lost shirt after shirt to the "do not fit" pile. I really only have about 6 shirts that cover my low lying belly...and two of those are long sleeve. So baby, I need you to come so that my clothes will fit. Or at least, I won't be showing my belly anymore.
2. I ran out of processed cheese. I know, its silly. But its my pregnancy craving food at the moment and I just finished eating the last slice.
3. If the zombie apocalypse comes, there is no way I can out run the zombies.
4. I really want fruit loops. But that involves a trip to the store (and the fear that my water could break or I could go into labour while I walk there) and the possibility that I won't be able to finish the box before the baby comes. Then I would waste food. And that sucks.
5. I'm a type A personality. And I've got everything ready for this baby. So now I'm getting bored cuz there is nothing more to organize.

Yep, those are my reasons why the baby needs to show up soon. Plus, who can resist a cute little gaffer?

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Crescent Beach


Playing on the beach for the first time

Belly Shot!

Boat?!

Splashing Grandma
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